Why am I passionate about this?

I have long been fascinated by how personal and singular the experience of grief is. There is something soothing and relatable about reading others’ experiences—the more strange, nonsensical, or even supernatural the better. My own novel, The Secret Garden of Yanagi Inn, is a retelling of The Secret Garden, but with an adult protagonist moving through grief over the death of her complicated mother, striving to see a bright ray of hope on the other side. Each of the books on my list about unusual manifestations of grief tackles this same concept in new and surprising ways, and I hope they touch you as they have touched me.  


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The Secret Garden of Yanagi Inn

By Amber A. Logan,

Book cover of The Secret Garden of Yanagi Inn

What is my book about?

A Modern Gothic Retelling of The Secret Garden.

Still grieving her mother’s death, American photographer Mari Lennox is sent to…

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The books I picked & why

Book cover of Grief Is the Thing with Feathers

Amber A. Logan Why did I love this book?

Of all the book recommendations on my list, this book fits the theme the best.

Grief is the Thing with Feathers is a novella about grief and loss, and tells the story of a father and his two sons who unexpectedly lose their wife/mother and are visited by a crow who is the literal manifestation of their grief.

Gorgeous and strange (part of the book is seen through the crow’s eyes!), this was the book that made me realize how blurred the line between prose and poetry can be, and why I love books that are surreal and challenging. It is also a book I will likely revisit when I am experiencing my own grief again someday.

By Max Porter,

Why should I read it?

7 authors picked Grief Is the Thing with Feathers as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

A SUNDAY TIMES TOP 100 NOVEL OF THE TWENTY-FIRST CENTURY

Winner of the 2016 International Dylan Thomas Prize and the Sunday Times/Peter, Fraser + Dunlop Young Writer of the Year award and shortlisted for the Guardian First Book Award and the Goldsmiths Prize.

In a London flat, two young boys face the unbearable sadness of their mother's sudden death. Their father, a Ted Hughes scholar and scruffy romantic, imagines a future of well-meaning visitors and emptiness.

In this moment of despair they are visited by Crow - antagonist, trickster, healer, babysitter. This sentimental bird is drawn to the grieving family…


Book cover of Afterword

Amber A. Logan Why did I love this book?

While the “manifestation of grief” may be less literal in Afterword, I would argue that the manifestation is no less profound.

Afterword tells the story of a woman who channels her grief by recreating her dead lover as an AI program. Schuyler’s gorgeous writing provides deep insights into love and loss and regret while touching on important contemporary ideas of online privacy and the gray morality of AI technology.   

By Nina Schuyler,

Why should I read it?

3 authors picked Afterword as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

A pioneer of artificial intelligence rebuilds the love of her life, but when she discovers he's been feeding incriminating civilian information to the Chinese government, she'll have to decide whether to keep or kill him.

When approached by a Chinese tech company, Virginia Samson is moved to give them her beloved's algorithm so they can create an AI companion for the aging population. Soon her digital lost love starts spying on Chinese citizens, funneling the information to the Chinese government. When Virginia frantically tries to rebuild him, she uncovers his terrible secret, forcing her to relive their beautiful and tragic…


Book cover of Rouge

Amber A. Logan Why did I love this book?

Rouge is at its heart an exploration of a daughter’s grief for her troubled mother and the bizarre turns that grief can take.

Rouge tells the story of a young woman obsessed with cult-like beauty culture. When her mother mysteriously dies, she is forced to return home and confront the complicated relationship she had with her also beauty-obsessed mother. Fairy tale surreal and viscerally disturbing, Rouge delves into obsession, grief, and the dangers of beauty culture taken to the extreme.

Like all of Awad’s books, this is a story that will stick with me a very long time.

By Mona Awad,

Why should I read it?

2 authors picked Rouge as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

From the critically acclaimed author of Bunny comes a horror-tinted, gothic fairy tale about a lonely dress shop clerk whose mother's unexpected death sends her down a treacherous path in pursuit of youth and beauty.

Can she escape her mother's fate and find a connection that is more than skin deep?

A Most Anticipated Book of 2023 in The Guardian, i newspaper, The New York Times, Time, Globe and Mail, Bustle, The Millions, LitHub, TOR, Good Housekeeping, Our Culture Mag, and more!

'You think, "She's not going to go there...yes, she is.' Margaret Atwood

'The trancelike, rhapsodic language and deepening…


Book cover of Watch Over Me

Amber A. Logan Why did I love this book?

Don’t let the YA tag dissuade you if you don’t generally read books for that audience; Watch Over Me has definite appeal for an adult crowd.

The main character is an 18-year-old young woman who has aged out of foster care and is searching for her place in the world. A ghost-story-that-isn’t-a-ghost-story, Watch Over Me is a book about confronting our own ghosts—literally and figuratively.

La Cour’s arresting prose seamlessly inserts the speculative elements into an exploration of recovery from guilt and grief in a way I found breathtaking. 

By Nina Lacour,

Why should I read it?

3 authors picked Watch Over Me as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it. This book is for kids age 14, 15, 16, and 17.

What is this book about?

A modern ghost story about trauma and survival, Watch Over Me is the much-anticipated new novel from the Printz Award-winning author of We Are Okay

"Gripping; an emotion-packed must-read." -Kirkus, starred review
"A painfully compelling gem from a masterful creator." -Booklist, starred review
"Moving, unsettling, and full of atmospheric beauty." -SLJ, starred review

Mila is used to being alone.

Maybe that's why she said yes. Yes to a second chance in this remote place, among the flowers and the fog and the crash of waves far below.

But she hadn't known about the ghosts.

Newly graduated from high school, Mila…


Book cover of H is for Hawk

Amber A. Logan Why did I love this book?

The only non-fiction book on my list, H is for Hawk nevertheless perfectly embodies my chosen theme.

H is for Hawk is part memoir, part nature-writing, part biography of T.H. White all seamlessly woven together into an enchanting book about battling grief and finding new ways to look at life. Macdonald is a woman who recently lost her father and in response takes on the training of a new (and famously challenging) goshawk, which becomes an obsession for her.

Macdonald has a true mastery of words and language and is also a brilliant narrator; I highly recommend the audiobook, narrated by the author herself. 

By Helen Macdonald,

Why should I read it?

15 authors picked H is for Hawk as one of their favorite books, and they share why you should read it.

What is this book about?

One of the New York Times Book Review's 10 Best Books of the Year

ON MORE THAN 25 BEST BOOKS OF THE YEAR LISTS: including TIME (#1 Nonfiction Book), NPR, O, The Oprah Magazine (10 Favorite Books), Vogue (Top 10), Vanity Fair, Washington Post, Boston Globe, Chicago Tribune, Seattle Times, San Francisco Chronicle (Top 10), Miami Herald, St. Louis Post Dispatch, Minneapolis Star Tribune (Top 10), Library Journal (Top 10), Publishers Weekly, Kirkus Reviews, Slate, Shelf Awareness, Book Riot, Amazon (Top 20)

The instant New York Times bestseller and award-winning sensation, Helen Macdonald's story of adopting and raising one of…


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The Secret Garden of Yanagi Inn

By Amber A. Logan,

Book cover of The Secret Garden of Yanagi Inn

What is my book about?

A Modern Gothic Retelling of The Secret Garden.

Still grieving her mother’s death, American photographer Mari Lennox is sent to document Yanagi Inn, an old, dilapidated ryokan outside Kyoto, Japan. By day, Mari explores the inn and its grounds, taking striking photographs and uncovering layers of mystery shrouding the old resort—including an overgrown, secret garden on a forbidden island. At night, eerie weeping (which no one else seems to hear) keeps her awake. Despite the warnings of the staff, Mari searches for the source of the ghostly sound—and discovers a devastating secret tying her family’s history to the inn, and its mysterious, forlorn garden.

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By Ruth F. Stevens,

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Why am I passionate about this?

From the time I was a girl, I’ve loved stories that put a lump in my throat even as I’m laughing. As a fiction writer, that funny-sad tone is the one I go for in my own work. I gravitate toward female protagonists of all ages who break the mold—women who are intelligent and strong but who also have unconventional, quirky personalities. Women who can be hilarious, infuriating, and heartbreaking—sometimes all at once. Because they are complex and unique, these women tend to struggle with life’s challenges more than their contemporaries. That’s what makes their stories so interesting, and why I have chosen the books on this list. 

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What is my book about?

When Mar’s husband divorces her, she reacts by abandoning everything in her past: her home, her friends, even her name. Though it's not easy starting over, she’s ready for new adventures—as long as she can keep things casual. Each month, Mar goes from one acquaintance to the next: a fellow gym member down on her luck, a flirty hip-hop instructor, a bossy but comical consultant. . . and a handsome novelist who wants more than she can give. Mar learns from each encounter. But can she open herself up to true connection?

Surrounded by quirky, endearing characters, Mar navigates her…

My Year of Casual Acquaintances

By Ruth F. Stevens,

What is this book about?

"A fun, entertaining novel! I can't imagine anyone who wouldn't enjoy this book as much as I did." -Leslie A. Rasmussen, award-winning author

When Mar Meyer's husband divorces her for another woman, she reacts by abandoning everything in her past: her home, her friends, even her name. Though it's not easy to start over, Mar is young-looking, fit, and ready for new adventures-as long as she can keep things casual.

With each passing month, Mar goes from one acquaintance to the next. Among them: a fellow gym member down on her luck, a flirty hip-hop instructor, a bossy but comical…


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