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Even If We Break Kindle Edition

by Marieke Nijkamp (Author) Format: Kindle Edition
4.1 4.1 out of 5 stars 383 ratings
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A shocking thriller about a group of friends who go to a cabin to play a murder mystery game…only to have the game turned against them, from the #1 New York Times bestselling author of This Is Where It Ends.

FIVE friends go to a cabin.

FOUR of them are hiding secrets.

THREE years of history bind them.

TWO are doomed from the start.

ONE person wants to end this.

NO ONE IS SAFE.

Five friends take a trip to a cabin. It's supposed to be one last getaway before going their separate ways—a chance to say goodbye to each other, and to the game they've been playing for the past three years. But they're all dealing with their own demons, and they're all hiding secrets.

And as they start to play the murder mystery game that brought them together in the first place, the lines between the game and reality blend, with deadly consequences. Someone knows their secrets. Someone wants to make them pay. Soon, it's a race against time before it's game over—forever.

Are you ready to play?

"Immersive and captivating. Thrilling in every sense of the word."—KAREN M. MCMANUS, #1 New York Times bestselling author of One of Us is Lying and One of Us is Next

Perfect for readers who love:

  • teenage mystery books or YA horror
  • LGBT stories about intersectional groups of friends
  • Karen McManus, Gretchen McNeil, or Natasha Preston

Praise for Even If We Break:

"The darkly twisted ode to self-discovery briskly whisks an intersectionally inclusive group through a reasonably stormy, emotionally charged scenario that considers the sometimes-steep price of growing up and growing apart."—Publishers Weekly

"An engaging read, providing readers with some solid suspense, and twists to sink their teeth into."—Booklist

"A fast-paced thriller that will leave you both gushing over the geekiness and gasping over the game."—Rachel Strolle, Glenside Public Library District

More Teen Thrillers by Marieke Nijkamp:

This Is Where It Ends

Before I Let Go

At the End of Everything (Coming January 2022)

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  5. Publication date
    September 15, 2020
  6. Reading age
    14 - 18 years
  7. Grade level
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Five friends go to a cabin.

Four of them are hiding secrets. Three years of history bind them.

Two are doomed from the start. One person wants to end this.

No one is safe.

Are you ready to play?

"Thrilling in every sense of the word." -Karen M. McManus, #1 NYT bestselling author

At the End of Everything This is Where It Ends Even If We Break Before I Let Go
At the End of Everything This Is Where It Ends Even If We Break Before I Let Go
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Don’t miss more from Marieke Nijkamp! A group of teens in a juvenile detention center try to survive a hostile world and a raging pandemic by taking care of each other. Four students struggle as their high school is held hostage by a boy with a weapon. Five friends with years of history and secrets spend a day in a cabin and not everyone will make it out. A girl investigates her best friend’s icy death in a secretive Alaskan town.
What’s it about? - Neurodivergent MC - Nonbinary MC - Found family - Apocalyptic setting - Viral Tiktok book - Trans rep - Hard-hitting topic - Conversation starter - Trans MC - Friend drama - D&D gone wrong - NERDS - Murder cabin - Mental health rep - Icy, small-town setting - Murder mystery - Slow horror

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Gr 9 Up-With a beginning worthy of a horror movie, five teenagers arrive at a deserted cabin on a supposedly haunted mountain intending to spend the weekend enjoying their long-standing role-playing game. The five, once good friends, have drifted apart, but with graduation near they decide to get together one more time, perhaps to mend some of the brokenness. They are all "Wonder Bread white" but otherwise a varied group: Liva, the rich owner of the cabin; Carter, the one who wants to escape town and become the rich man he thinks he deserves to be; Finn, a transgender boy living with arthritis; Ever, the non-binary leader of the game; and Maddy, who is bisexual, autistic, and an injured athlete. The game starts well, at least until Liva disappears, leaving a bloody room and a finger on the windowsill. The terror continues as secrets are revealed, lives are put in danger, and those who remain must decide whether to trust each other. With movie-style pacing, the plot carefully unravels relationships and plans for the weekend as the remaining characters are targeted. While the characters are distinct and unique, they are also fairly well-rounded and developed with their differences being only part of their characterization. The fast pace of the action slows down when three of the characters escape the cabin and head back down the mountain, deep in conversation that, at times, seems a little forced and out of character. While the climax might be predictable for some readers, it does not detract from the overall atmosphere of the book. VERDICT A thriller with appeal for a variety of readers.-Janet Hilbun, University of North Texas, Dentonα(c) Copyright 2011. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

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"Immersive and captivating. From its well-drawn characters to their twisty game-turned-crime scene, Even If We Break is thrilling in every sense of the word." ― Karen M. McManus, #1 New York Times bestselling author

"Worthy of a horror movie... While the characters are distinct and unique, they are also fairly well-rounded and developed with their differences being only part of their characterization… A thriller with appeal for a variety of readers." ― School Library Journal

"The darkly twisted ode to self-discovery briskly whisks an intersectionally inclusive group through a reasonably stormy, emotionally charged scenario that considers the sometimes-steep price of growing up and growing apart." ― Publishers Weekly

"An engaging read, providing readers with some solid suspense, and twists to sink their teeth into." ― Booklist

Product details

  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B0861C8D31
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ Sourcebooks Fire (September 15, 2020)
  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ September 15, 2020
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 1972 KB
  • Text-to-Speech ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Screen Reader ‏ : ‎ Supported
  • Enhanced typesetting ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • X-Ray ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Word Wise ‏ : ‎ Not Enabled
  • Sticky notes ‏ : ‎ On Kindle Scribe
  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 322 pages
  • Page numbers source ISBN ‏ : ‎ 1728231965
  • Customer Reviews:
    4.1 4.1 out of 5 stars 383 ratings

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Marieke Nijkamp

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Marieke Nijkamp is a storyteller, dreamer, globe-trotter, geek. She wants to grow up to be a time traveler.

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A YA thriller perfect for Halloween time.
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A YA thriller perfect for Halloween time.
FIVE friends go to a cabin.FOUR of them are hiding secrets.THREE years of history bind them.TWO are doomed from the start.ONE person wants to end this.NO ONE IS SAFE.Even If We Break was a great YA Thriller, especially for this time of the year. We get to watch five friends as life changes if more for them on this trip, for the best and worse possible ways. Marieke did an amazing job with this book, the pace was great, it never dragged out, and it was easy to get into.I liked the characters, and liked to see how they changed. I found her ability to bring in characters that aren’t represented in other books to be great, and it felt good to see a character that I could relate too.It was fun to see a RPG in a story but it not be the whole story (it gave a little stranger things vibe with that) and I had to find out if I was right on who was behind everything.I read this quickly (in two sittings) and enjoyed it very much.If you want a fun thriller, and if you’re not big on scariness this maybe for you. I definitely gave it a five star for a good YA thriller.
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Amanda Springsteen
5.0 out of 5 stars Love it!
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Toni
5.0 out of 5 stars A YA thriller perfect for Halloween time.
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FIVE friends go to a cabin.
FOUR of them are hiding secrets.
THREE years of history bind them.
TWO are doomed from the start.
ONE person wants to end this.
NO ONE IS SAFE.

Even If We Break was a great YA Thriller, especially for this time of the year. We get to watch five friends as life changes if more for them on this trip, for the best and worse possible ways. Marieke did an amazing job with this book, the pace was great, it never dragged out, and it was easy to get into.
I liked the characters, and liked to see how they changed. I found her ability to bring in characters that aren’t represented in other books to be great, and it felt good to see a character that I could relate too.
It was fun to see a RPG in a story but it not be the whole story (it gave a little stranger things vibe with that) and I had to find out if I was right on who was behind everything.
I read this quickly (in two sittings) and enjoyed it very much.
If you want a fun thriller, and if you’re not big on scariness this maybe for you. I definitely gave it a five star for a good YA thriller.
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Toni
5.0 out of 5 stars A YA thriller perfect for Halloween time.
Reviewed in the United States on October 13, 2020
FIVE friends go to a cabin.
FOUR of them are hiding secrets.
THREE years of history bind them.
TWO are doomed from the start.
ONE person wants to end this.
NO ONE IS SAFE.

Even If We Break was a great YA Thriller, especially for this time of the year. We get to watch five friends as life changes if more for them on this trip, for the best and worse possible ways. Marieke did an amazing job with this book, the pace was great, it never dragged out, and it was easy to get into.
I liked the characters, and liked to see how they changed. I found her ability to bring in characters that aren’t represented in other books to be great, and it felt good to see a character that I could relate too.
It was fun to see a RPG in a story but it not be the whole story (it gave a little stranger things vibe with that) and I had to find out if I was right on who was behind everything.
I read this quickly (in two sittings) and enjoyed it very much.
If you want a fun thriller, and if you’re not big on scariness this maybe for you. I definitely gave it a five star for a good YA thriller.
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Jill Nicely
4.0 out of 5 stars best friends for ever
Reviewed in the United States on November 7, 2020
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There was a time when they were all friends, when they came together as a refuge every week to play Gonfalon and escape their real world problems. When it started in middle school. there were 6 of them, Ever, Finn, Carter, Liva, Maddy, and Zac. Zac left the group, and they were 5.

Now, it’s coming to an end. Soon some of them will graduate from high school and head off to college. Others in the group will stay behind to finish high school or to work. And although the group has already started to develop some fractures, they still have this weekend. One last weekend to come together as friends to play the game. They have costumes, hand-sown by Liva, and Liva’s family cabin all to themselves. They have this last chance to get away from family and school, work and responsibilities, for one last campaign.

Ever had come up to the cabin early to prepare for the rest. As the creator of Gonfalon, they had created all the quests, all the challenges, all the puzzles in the game to distract and get the best out of them. They had moved around the furniture and added complicated markings to depict the magic in the game. Ever made sure everything was in place so the entire group could come to the cabin tomorrow and start playing their last quest right away. And even though the cabin and the woods around it are rumored to be haunted, Ever doesn’t worry about that. They just concentrate on making this weekend perfect.

But an overnight rainstorm makes things more difficult from the start. The trek from the cars to the cabin is blocked by a wall of rocks that came down from the mountain. Ever, Liva, and Carter don’t have too much trouble scaling it, but Maddy’s injured knee and Finn’s crutches make it painful just to get to the cabin. But they do, and after a few minutes to get settled, they all get in costume and prepare for the mysteries that await them.

The group start to solve Ever’s mystery, but other mysteries keep popping up. There is strange music in the air, the heat goes out, and Ever’s props were moved and changed. The atmosphere, already charged from the personal secrets and betrayals, becomes laden with the ghost stories of a killer in the woods. But it’s not until Liva goes missing that the friends truly start to feel that they are in danger.

The rest of the friends realize that the only way to get out alive is to pull together, but will they be able to put aside their grievances and focus enough to save themselves from a potential killer? Will they all be able to survive this last weekend together?

Marieke Nijkamp has written this chilling, thrilling look at friendship, how it can go wrong and how it can right. Even If We Break is a powerful look at the secrets that divide us and the choices we must make to remove those divisions and come together as a dynamic group. And if this roller coaster of a story alone isn’t enough, these characters are also dealing with personal issues like neurodiversity, gender diversity, addiction, bullying, poverty, and their sexuality.

I was excited to dive into Even If We Break, and once I did, I didn’t want to stop. This story is part horror story, part locked room mystery, with plenty of teenage angst added in. These characters are pushed to the edge, and they have to find the strength within themselves to survive. This is the perfect escape for a difficult year as well as powerful inspiration to be your best self in spite of circumstances, or maybe because of them. I highly recommend this one if you find yourself looking for a particularly intense YA read.

A copy of Even If We Break was provided by Sourcebooks Fire, with many thanks, but I liked it so much I also bought the Kindle version from Amazon.
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Tan
3.0 out of 5 stars Not Bad, Not Amazing
Reviewed in the United States on July 18, 2023
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I am very in the middle with my feelings about this book, I won’t go too much into the plot because I don’t want to accidentally spoil anything. In short, it is not a bad book but it is not one that I have thought about since I finished it. The plot was good, I did not expect it to lean so heavily on the characters being super into roleplay games which I think is where it confused some of the other people who have read this book, but that did not take away from the story itself. I just found that I couldn’t really connect with any of the characters because the point of view switched often and the plot twist was very predictable. Other than that, it's not a bad book and it's worth a shot for some audiences.
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3.0 out of 5 stars Not Bad, Not Amazing
Reviewed in the United States on July 18, 2023
I am very in the middle with my feelings about this book, I won’t go too much into the plot because I don’t want to accidentally spoil anything. In short, it is not a bad book but it is not one that I have thought about since I finished it. The plot was good, I did not expect it to lean so heavily on the characters being super into roleplay games which I think is where it confused some of the other people who have read this book, but that did not take away from the story itself. I just found that I couldn’t really connect with any of the characters because the point of view switched often and the plot twist was very predictable. Other than that, it's not a bad book and it's worth a shot for some audiences.
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Sissy
5.0 out of 5 stars A very good read
Reviewed in the United States on January 9, 2022
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Definitely loved this one it’s got some twists.
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Dee
2.0 out of 5 stars I was disappointed
Reviewed in the United States on January 14, 2021
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It sounded intriguing. A nice little TTRPG murder to solve that becomes a real life murder mystery. What it actually ended up being is tedious. Took too long to get anywhere. Entirely too much navel gazing by all the individual characters. I couldn’t find anything redeeming about any of them so I disliked them all.
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Chiqui Pelaez
5.0 out of 5 stars Awesome Book
Reviewed in the United States on April 22, 2021
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My kid loved this book would recommend
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2.0 out of 5 stars Just… not good!
Reviewed in the United Kingdom on September 18, 2021
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The characters are all written to be a little “woke” - based on experiences from the writer. But the outcome is several character with no difference or depth from each other.
The reactions from e characters throughout seem unrealistic, and the ideas cliched.
The storyline is hard to get into and it’s hard to really empathise with the characters.
The outcome is an overly cliched story with obvious ending.
The story is hard to get into, with the nerdy role play game and it’s just… not good
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